The other day I looked at my phone and I saw I had notification on my YouTube channel. I clicked on the button and saw yet another demeaning and bullying comment on my most watched video: “How to do sit-ups for people who can’t do regular sit-ups”. You can watch it by clicking on the link below.
I saw the comment, and, in “the blink of an eye” I deleted the comment. I made it go away. Sure I could have reported it to YouTube, but I’m not sure it violated their terms of decency, and I didn’t want to spend the time researching the issue. I decided to delete the comment because I also didn’t want to spend time researching the profile of the person who wrote it. Bullies and Jerks have taken up enough of my time, energy, and effort.
I do not understand why people feel they have a right to judge others based on their appearance. Because I am fat or because I have fat (whichever term you prefer) people believe they have the right to demean my existence with their comments. I choose to write a blog, and I chose to do some YouTube videos because I strongly believe that life is not meant to be hidden, but I have slowed down with the blog and the videos because I’m no longer sure which direction I’m headed. I don’t know how much of my life I want public.
I certainly don’t wish to be bullied anymore. I’m not slowing down because of the bullies. I’m taking time to think for other reasons. But I am tired of bullies and jerks and people thinking they have a right to be self-serving pompous jerks because they might not be fat or have fat. I’m really not sure what people think they will accomplish by insulting others. It’s not going to stop me from living. But I do know it has stopped others and made them hide.
Once upon a time I would have seen such a nasty comment on my YouTube page and I would have been paralyzed with tears and over emotion, and I would have run to the store to buy double-stuff oreos, but not this time. This time I hit the delete button and have gone on with my life.