I’ve been a bit silent lately because I’ve been spending a lot of time putting the finishing touches on a banquet I volunteered to coordinate at the beautiful oasis known as Lake Shrine in the Pacific Palisades. It took more hours than I thought, but every second taught me something about myself. I suppose at some point I’ll share those lessons. This entry revolves around clothing.
I love the color yellow; almost as much as I love the color pink. I’ve been wanting a yellow dress for the longest time. One day, on a search for the perfect dress for this event, I spotted a bedazzled yellow dress with navy on the top. I fell in love with it immediately. Fortunately, for me, the tailor said he could adjust it. I found the dress in an Indian dress shop on Reseda near the corner of Reseda and Parthenia.
The day I went to pick up the dress, I felt so excited. Then I tried on the dress and the excitement waned. It wasn’t the dress; it was me. I just didn’t like what I saw. I felt bad about how I looked. I felt fat. I felt like a blob.
I saw where I was when I started this journey. I didn’t see where I am now. That’s the problem. I didn’t see the moment. I always wanted a pretty yellow dress. I found a gorgeous yellow dress, with loads of bling.
Feeling badly about myself doesn’t get me to the gym. It doesn’t get me to yoga. It doesn’t inspire me to eat healthy. It has the opposite effect. When I feel badly about myself I’m far more likely to consume high-fat junk foods, and once I start eating those the cycle is sooooo hard to stop.
I’ve learned to accept my body more doing yoga. I don’t quite know how to explain it but I don’t view it was negatively as I used to, so when I have the moments like I did with the yellow dress I feel them more intensely.
I don’t wish to feel badly about myself anymore, so I’m sharing pics of me in the yellow dress. Pics from an event that by all accounts went amazingly well. If I can share anything with everyone it’s this—live in this moment and feel okay with who you are in the moment. That’s how you’ll find the inspiration and energy to create more moments that hold the promise of joy that you deserve! Life’s too short to feel any emoting other than love!
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